Miserable.

Once again in the midnight, I have met some questions of life. People always bother about money. Money isn't the only concern, but it indeed could give the best solution for everything. I heard a quote "If money can do the job, it's shouldn't be a problem". God knows some people who are in a miserable financial condition do exist. All the time when I start to expect something I start being disappointed.

Some born not knowing how to appreciate, some born not getting what they appreciate. Libra loves balance. Everyone knows that this world is unbalance, it's unfair. I thought that I accepted it however sometimes I feel suffocating in a world like this.

There should be a reversi game play on those who don't appreciate. Let the whites turn blacks and vice versa.

I have a boyfriend, who...

I wanted to express this long time ago, but was always procrastinated. 30 little good things about my boyfriend.
I have a boyfriend, who...

1. never let me wait more than my patience could go.
2. never let me fall when I want him to hold me up and high.
3. carries out his every single promise to me.
4. cares how I get along with everyone around me.
5. takes my family members as his own.
6. listens to my heart speaking no matter I'm sad or happy.
7. shares every piece of joyful moment with me.
8. shares every sad story with me.
9. kisses me every morning as I wake up.
10. hold my right hand gently yet tightly on the street.
11. takes me everywhere I want to go if that's not too much.
12. believes how well I can do my job.
13. thinks that I'm brilliant, cute, and sweet and he could never find the second best.
14. wants to give me suprise, but he always had no idea.
15. would loves to buy me everything as if he could afford.
16. was a stubborn stone before I actually melt him.
17. always criticise my artworks until I finally get the best piece of artwork.
18. always exhort me everytime I feel like spending for something unneccessary.
19. protects me like I'm his treasure.
20. acts like a baby when he demands more love from me.
21. never know how to demand anything from me except love.
22. gets jealous easily since I'm the only one he has.
23. can cook splendidly but he doesn't let me touch the pancake turner.
24. hates waiting no matter how much people explain to him ladies are worth waiting.
25. gets happy for everything I did to him, even a shoulder massage or a body cleaning.
26. rarely let me take public transit since I met him.
27. calls me princess, calls me sweet, loves me tender, loves me sweet.
28. fondle me like I was his pet, but more than his pet.
29. never have to let me feel worry about the direction coz he will lead me through the way.
30. named Edward Sia Kian Tat, Mozigeli, 余健达, dear dear.

Anything I'm Not

Listening to : Mr Lecturer next door lecturing binary forms.
Location: Apiit. (was in the noisy syndicate room, but moved to library for a silent peace of mind.)
Wishing that: I'm somewhere outside, browsing some books.

I was listening to Lenka's Anything I'm Not while I feel like posting something. The lyrics were:

I'll never be, I'll never be tall, no
I'll never be, never ever be sure of it all
Oh, why is the world so cruel to me
When all, all I ever want to be is anything I'm not

Gimme a break, a little escape
I'm so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not

I'll never be, I'll never be you,no
I'll always be, I'll always be me, that I know
But oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality,oh.


The fact is that we always try to be someone else who we will never be. However even though we were happy being ourselves, certain harsh reality just crashed us by for granted. Thus we would ask: "Anything I'm not = Anything I want to be ?", I'll never be what I want!

Literally from the law of attraction, you should always ask for what you want, be ready to accept what you want to attract. I agree that thinking the good things you will have a better day rather than being grumpy around and complaining. What law attraction trying to attract not neccessary to be a good thing, but at least it gives you good mood.

Apparently you can also lose weight from law of attraction. How magical that someone lose few pounds by just thinking and accepting " I'm in my best weight, I'm in my best shape". Not to comment whether it makes sense or not, unless you give a try on it. However I think it's hardly believable since it's physically change. Just like I keep telling myself "I'm 5"6 tall, I'm 5"6 tall", am I going to achieve that height in this age?

Or can I tell myself "I'm a caucasian, I'm a caucasian, I have blue/green eyes, blond hair", then me and my gens will be totally changed? The book just left me a lot of question marks.

However this Lenka song telling the truth about oneself dealing with what he/she wanted to be in life, and he/she will never be. We always heard people saying "I'm who I'm", "I'll always be myself", and despite of how many times they'd spoken it in their life time, are they really being themselves and enjoying themselves? Can MalXXsian just keep shouting "MalXXsia BOLEH!" and get what they planned for?

I = Anything I'm. Appreciate and Enjoy!

Cheers,
Carrie.

Birthday Wish List

I never practice this before, but since I'm turning 20 this October, I guess I should give it a shoot. Here I come my 2nd decade!
*eyes rollings* I always have something I want.. but they aren't crossing over my mind at this moment ><

Just a few:

1. Starbucks Cup - Excuse me, not the plastic cup! I love Starbucks logo, for no reason :P Guess picture speaks thousand words. I prefer a tall one actually.


2. Necklace - I haven't bought necklace for thousands of years >.< Preferably with unique pendant. Was impressed with Hyori's cassette necklace and I want it so much!



3. 3ds Max Tutorial books - Would like to explore more in 3ds max, resources I found online were quite limited >.<

4. Baby-tee :D


5. Bracelet/ any other fashion accessories - Haven't shopped for accessories for so long, I have got no mate to go shopping with me T.T Poor me.

6. Birthday Hug - Birthday hug is warm isn't it, and it doesn't cost you a penny! :D

Hmm I will update this if I have anything cross over my mind xD

It has been a while :P

Hey dear bloggie sorry that I had not posted anything lately, was engaged with my 3ds Max assignment crazily.
I'm so relieved as we finally had our 3d animation done! Undoubtedly it wasn't as perfect as what you have seen in the movie since we have limited skills and time. However we really enjoyed animating our cute characters in our animation! Will post the video up later since I'm lazy now.

Someone brought me down yesterday, I could feel that he was actually looking down at what I'm doing now (3ds max animation). He criticized that doing animation was actually an easy job (even though he knows nothing about it) as all we depend on was the 3ds max software, everything we have to do was just follow the settings, it need no special skills. I never thought he could spoke that to me as he was one of my respecters, but not anymore today. He thought what he doing now is BIG ART, is vital and noble, and I make no sense on doing this or anything. What a snob.

I hate people who takes no responsibilities on saying/thinking other people's job can be EASILY done as a matter of fact - they never had a dig at it before. Usually we always think that some chores are easy yet it is always NOT EASY when you handle it.

Even though you're winning in what you are doing now doesn't mean you have to criticize what other people doing. You're on your driver seat, I'm on mine too. Please do not drive and crash me over!